Not alone

Even when you don't speak the words, He speaks in many ways to let you know you are not alone!

You Are My All In All


        You are my strength when I am weak        
You are the treasure that I seek       
You are my all in all
           Seeking You as a precious Jewel           
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all


Jesus Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name


Taking my sin my cross my shame
Rising again I bless your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down You lift me up
When I am dry You fill my cup
You are my all in all


Jesus Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name 

What will i do..

Are there times when you feel like nothing is going your way? What you were aiming to go/get is now unachievable? Feel like you have so much work that you have no time to plan your future? O my. I feel i pinch of this now. Soon approaching the christmas holidays, i have a fair bit excited yet a little exhausted. From school work, no rest, and the constant reminder that i got to "figure out my life". Graduation is definetly a "woot woot" in my books... but what i'm suppose to do after i don't really give much a "toot toot" about.
Teachers apps are due soon, but i don't feel my creditials are up to par to apply. But my friends say "apply anyways as a back up." She spent $500 just applying for schools. But the difference is that i know she'll be a SUPERB teacher with her experience, passion and all. Lately, i'm feeling a lil passion for nothing. With the past of CA rejection (which i don't think i was cut out for anyways), it has left me in a dark gray area that i've dread to be in for ages.. the time where you graduate you have you have no direction of where to go.
Furthermore, the fact that i'm sitting on my bum most of the time due to my lovely studying session has immensingly added extra insulation on my buttox! I reallly need to hit the gym! This is, if you know me well enough, the my MOST sensitive subject ever.. FATTNESS.
You can call me names or joke around and all.. but i can relive my child-hood nightmare of getting chubby again. I lived with it almost half of my life (so far) and i'm not going to let it pull down my self-esteem anymore! But it seems like a vicious cycle.. since i'm an emotional eatter at times. I think its the worst when you know you need to do it to change everything aroiund.. but you don't/tempted not to take the first step!

On a more sunnier note.. i've found another drink to study with (non-alcoholic ofcourse). Instead of getting Orangina, i just use Perrier water and OJ! Lovely boost of energy :) minus the sugar and the cream in a coffee! Now that's a double WOOT WOOT! Good luck all to those that have examies soooonnn!

Spending dairies continued...

Day 2 - Thursday
Bottle of water: 1.19
Orangina: 1.70
Grand Total : $2.89

Nice spending.. :)

Day 3 - Friday
Chicken with Greek salad - $11.00
Grand Total: $11

Not bad... but i am craving ice cream... ummmm.. chocolate chip w/ cookie dough!
well back to study time.. WHOLE month of november will be filled with long nights downtown studing it up at Woodsworth building.. until i'm kicked out by the indian man saying "we are closing.. *sweeps floor w/ broom a couple of times*"

Good luck to all.. can't wait til i see palm trees and the sunny weather!

Spending Diaries

Well here's the dish. My friend sent me this article http://nymag.com/guides/money/2006/23490/index.html and it was about how six people documented their spending habits for a span of a week. My friend advised i do the same.. not because i spend alot (as many of you feel that I am the shopaholic.. which in fact i really am NOT), but just to see how much i do indeed spend. I was appalled when i saw that a subsidized grad student spent $452.67 in a week! That's like $1,810 in a month$21,728 in a YEAR! woooowww. That's like 2 years of my tuition at U of T! Newho.. i think you should do the same.. to see where u can save and where you can AFFORD to splurge :)

hmm.. let's see what i spent yesterday...

Wednesday November 8, 2006.
Lunch : Tim Horton's Chicken toasted sandwich combo (donut and peach juice) - $6.88
During class snack : Potato skin chips (sooo yummy) - $1.25
Dinner: Sweet and sour pad tai - $10
Coffee: $2
Grand total for Day 1: $20.13

After thought - not THAT bad.. i think.. it's about 45mins of work on saturday.. but i'll be bringin my lunch to school today.. so maybe i'll be better :)

Salt and Light

You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses
its saltiness, how can it be made salty
again? it is no longer good for anything, except
to be thrown out and trampled by men.
You are the light of the world. A city on a
hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light
a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they
put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone
in the house. In the same way, let your
light shine before men, that they may see your
good deeds an dpraise your Father in heaven.
~ Matthew 5: 13 -16 ~

Salt is the common element used, it perserves, adds favor and makes you thrist. Light guides and helps you see the truth. Light is not generated by yourselft but a mere relflection of Christ. This was what I took away from Sunday school this week, which was the last session of looking at the book What so amazing about Grace? I haven't attend this Sunday school regularly so I had sat quietly absorbing the thoughts and feelings in a summary of the book. It was quite interesting I have to say, learning in a small intimate group. It also brought me to think about events that happened during the week.

There are many reasons that there is passativity in a person leading a Christian life. Complacency, fear, and temptation are just a few. I have experienced times when friends (that aren't Christian) somewhat bash the religion, mostly I feel because they don't understand about it, and I try to rid them of these thoughts. But I come out after feeling like i didn't defend Christianity well enough to win them over... like i was just passively standing there letting them think what they think. Sometimes i feel its because of the fear i might scare they away. I've heard once from another friend say that her co-worker claims to be Christian because it is the "least flawed religion". I was shocked and in awe that that was said. And you wonder.. HOW can you exert Grace upon someone that just said that. But we have to learn to exert grace upon all.

God seeks love in diversity. Beauty lies on Earth where beauty need not exist. Grace is the counterpart of violence. Grace is shown through a process of influence.

The kingdom of heaven is like a mustard see,
which a man took and planted in his field.
Though it is the smallest of all your seeds, yet when it grows,
it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree,
so that the birds of the air come and perch in its branches.
~ Matthew 13:31-33 ~

Plant your seed in someone and it may grow more than you can ever imagine.