LOST

With the uproar of school and me falling behind, i haven't really got the chance to sit down and really decide whats the next door i want to step into after graduation (which i REALLY hope is this year). I was planning on accounting (yes.. the endless hours of numbers) but now i dont' know if i'm cut out for it. After entering university, i feel like i've gotten stupid over the years (but in reality it's just that you meet A LOT more smarter ppl). I am really scared and actually really excited what is in store for me. I'm partially scared because i don't know if i'll get a good job where i would be able to pay my loans, support my parents (and maybe my brother) and my OCCASSIONAL fashion updates.....(to say the least).

I feel like a lost sheep wondering in the meadows hoping a wolf won't find me and i'll see that shiny yellow brick road .. hmm.. thats the wizard of oz... o wellz. Or maybe i'm not lost, but just that i can't see what is in store for me......

Back to reality!

After coming back from Vegas Vacation, its back to school. I had oodles of fun during my 2 weeks of summer vacation due to summer school, but i was excited for the beginning my 4th year! However, after attending a seminar on friday for Commerce, i became really scared of the whole recruiting season (well it's actually this week). I can really say i'm in the slumps when it comes to thinking that this is the week that determines if i'll have a job or be jobless at the end of May. Sometimes i think if i'm really cut out to be the girl in the suit working unsteady hours crunching numbers in the office. But then i wonder if i'm not.. then what am i cut out for?
All i know right now is to only pray pray pray and pray. If i don't get the accounting job.. maybe it's a sign for me to change my career options and focus on something else. sometimes the anticipation of what God has planned for me really gives me the jitters. But knowing He knows all and cares, i can only be patient and do the BEST i can.