~ Distance~
The weather for the past couple of days are CRAZY. It's so hot, sticky, and full of persperation! Although its enjoyable (compared to the cold burring winter), the hotness makes me not want to do anything in fear that i would get even more sweatier. But just listening to the thunder and watching the lightening kinda brings some comfort, as weird as it may sound. But the sound of rain brings some peace in my mind and , of course, a nice lil breeze :)
Lately, i've felt a little distant from my friends. And i can't say it's totally because of school and work. There's so many things on my mind that i think about when i'm alone which i prefer not to continuously think about but a lil desire in me to spend time alone. I guess this is reflection. I just feel so separated from the world and so alone. And during this time, i feel so unproductive.. pondering about things in the past that i should really forget about or jumping to conclusions of things yet to come. Just to many thoughts.
Besides that, i've come to realize something that i tend to do.. and i really regret after.. every SINGLE time! Have you ever get so frustrated about something that is out of your control, but get mad at others (i.e. love ones) to take out the frustration? Well, i can say i do. This past monday, i had class downtown and because of the TTC strike i was stuck downtown until 8pm (from 10am). As i was waiting for the subways to reopen, my frustration grew ( i think partial because of the hot weather too). Finally when my daddy decided to pick me up from my mommy's work place, i was taking my frustration out on him. I didn't really know why at the time i was just giving single answers to my dad or my lack of enthusiam, but i've come to realize that it was just stupidity and a waste of anger. i mean it was really no ones fault! I dunno.. i just pray that i can stop doing this and learn to be thankful for everything i have.
Time to hit the books.. my 2 new loves: Finance and Canadian economic history.. OOoooOOOOo.. hehe
luv ya alls,
ren ren
The weather for the past couple of days are CRAZY. It's so hot, sticky, and full of persperation! Although its enjoyable (compared to the cold burring winter), the hotness makes me not want to do anything in fear that i would get even more sweatier. But just listening to the thunder and watching the lightening kinda brings some comfort, as weird as it may sound. But the sound of rain brings some peace in my mind and , of course, a nice lil breeze :)
Lately, i've felt a little distant from my friends. And i can't say it's totally because of school and work. There's so many things on my mind that i think about when i'm alone which i prefer not to continuously think about but a lil desire in me to spend time alone. I guess this is reflection. I just feel so separated from the world and so alone. And during this time, i feel so unproductive.. pondering about things in the past that i should really forget about or jumping to conclusions of things yet to come. Just to many thoughts.
Besides that, i've come to realize something that i tend to do.. and i really regret after.. every SINGLE time! Have you ever get so frustrated about something that is out of your control, but get mad at others (i.e. love ones) to take out the frustration? Well, i can say i do. This past monday, i had class downtown and because of the TTC strike i was stuck downtown until 8pm (from 10am). As i was waiting for the subways to reopen, my frustration grew ( i think partial because of the hot weather too). Finally when my daddy decided to pick me up from my mommy's work place, i was taking my frustration out on him. I didn't really know why at the time i was just giving single answers to my dad or my lack of enthusiam, but i've come to realize that it was just stupidity and a waste of anger. i mean it was really no ones fault! I dunno.. i just pray that i can stop doing this and learn to be thankful for everything i have.
Time to hit the books.. my 2 new loves: Finance and Canadian economic history.. OOoooOOOOo.. hehe
luv ya alls,
ren ren
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